一辈子的幸福

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有时候我们必须单身，单身久了我们以为自己爱上单身的生活，因为总是遇上不对的人所以我们更加严谨，我们不再相信直觉式的好感，从这样的好感中建立的可能性我们都试过了不是吗？因为我们以为自己承受不住再一次不能长久的爱情，我们不要开花了，这个可以跳过，我们可不可以只要一次结果？开花开到很累了。“

- 管启源, 摘自四月份ＣＩＴＴＡＢＥＬＬＡ -

不得不承认对这段文字有多么的认同，我的爱情故事没有别人精彩，一次又一次重复着一样的程序，为的就是寻在那一个对的人。一次比一次认真，一次比一次投入，一次比一次更相信自己离幸福不远。在恋爱中的失败不曾让我气馁，为的是两个人下半辈子的幸福。

一直相信自己清楚了解自己要的是细水长流的爱情，所以从不留恋没有将来的游戏。遇见了他，经过漫漫六年的分离思念复合了解到确认双方是此生长相厮守的人后，男人却在重要日子前动摇并退缩，对着这个一起生活了六年的女人，连说要离开的勇气都没有，只敢收起所有的爱与关怀让无法忍受脱泥带水的我，自找个台阶，让大家下这个万丈高台。男人到底没有说清楚退缩的原因，只有不断的道歉。

分开的三个月后，前往那个拥有多少回忆的地方收拾时，意外发现衣柜早被人占据，那刺眼的热裤深深的烙在脑海。　耳边仍听到男人刚对我说分手后生活有多难熬，日子多不顺心，眼前却摆出了另一个事实。也许这是男人的天性，懂得把昨天在昨天放下，完全实施今日事，今日毕。伤透心的不是男人已把心付托在别人身上，　更不是六年的努力付诸流水，而是想不到自己竟然看不清这男人的心，更看不见那片隔开两人的海。或许一开始就是我一相情愿，　男人偶尔配合演出，无论如何，这已无法追究，不必追究。

当然，我并没有放弃自己，依然在努力寻找幸福，但方式已大大不同，即然多么周详的安排也不能确定明天的结局，哪我在执着些什么？今天的我在享受可呼吸空气的自由，期待开花结果的过程太累人，何不努力给自己一辈子的幸福？

Calmness, from the oven

Was thinking about taking up a baking skill for a while and today after my long day at office, I felt like I needed to swift away from my usual work for a while, before I swallowed by those negative charges again.

So after a simple preparation (open the box, read instruction, mix eggs, water and oil to the mixture :p ), I had finally pop the tray with thick chocolate mixture in the oven and wait start to wait patiently.

After at least like 25 stares to the oven, finaly, it start to look like this.

Although this cake is real simple to make, it taste rather normal (what else can you expect from a box? ), but this 60minutes of little exercise (i don't have a electronic mixer yet, so imagine my hard work :( ) managed to ease my stress a little. I wish I can find more tranquil through this new found hobby.

It don't look too bad right?

Check out http://bigboysoven.blogspot.com/2009/02/yoghurt-cranberries-cup-cupcakes-with.html - This will be my next weekend project.

New Found Jewels

For you who know me for a whole should know that how I been through a hard time with my skin follow the uncontrollable breakout around end 2007.

For some one who have a sensitive skin like me, a breakout like this is not easy to handle. Too much problem to solve at one time. So by following expert advice, experimenting products (note: I do a lot of research and do study products before I put on my face), now my skin is about 80% recover, with just help from products and also of course a very important – balance diet.

So, I decided to share my experience here with everyone out there, so, look for my new Beauty section soon.

简单的感动

短短三天两夜的假期，想不到得到的是不断的惊喜。从怡保开始，就尝到了最简单的感动，一碗的清汤鸡丝河粉提醒了我不一定要有珍贵的食材才可以烹调出令人垂沿的美食。也许当中还参杂了地主的热情，所以感觉更温暖。